Re: Trinity de Guzman - Ayahuasca Healings (WA, USA)

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–][deleted] 3 points 12 days ago
Used to really dig Bentinho a couple years ago. That was when I was desperately trying to find a story for what was happening. Same kind of affection was there for Trinity De Guzman who was at one point trying to start an Ayahuasca church in the US. They were young guys who, in my eyes, were in on this mass Awakening that made some people special.

I was desperately trying to find a story to be special. So there was an exchange from wanting to be special for the sake of my talents or ambitions to wanting to be special for having discovered some great truth.

There was also a sneaky kind of envy with regards to Bentinho and Trinity because it had been an ambition to also launch out with some sort of preaching. I wanted to sell it, badly, and my image of being a light worker right along with it. It was something not only to make myself feel special but to sell others on my sense of being special.

Then, feeling guilty for my own ambition, I grew annoyed with Bentinho and any of the other younger guys (like Infinite Waters and GoldJacketLuke), stewing in a strange hypocrisy.

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Anyway, it seems to me that Bentinho, Trinity and others like that are still trying to figure themselves out in this whole thing. There's a personal story still playing out. There's a personal story playing out for anyone who buys their products. This is the same (and I'm guessing, don't take my word for it) for anyone who buys into the specialness of someone else.

There's such a beauty to not being special, to being no one in particular, to getting so lost in the character that there isn't a sense of self. That's the stuff that sells, because, despite what the awakening story is, we didn't come here to realize we've always been here. We know that. That's why it feels like remembering. We came to forget who we are.,,,