When reading your first post Nowthewiser I also thought that it was the same person who wrote most of the previous ones, because of the resemblance to what sounded to me carefully constructed and vague.
Now, in this last post I hear a personal expression of someone, I can feel anger, disappointment and bitterness in your words and wonder what has caused you so much hurt, because I simply can’t match the things you say with my own experience of knowing Uma Inder for 3 years in which I have been in close contact with her and participated in some of her group programs.
You say you are afraid to be specific about your experiences because of death threats, which really puzzle me because it’s so far removed from the openness and absence of any kind of pressure that I experienced in my dealings with Uma Inder and people close to her, that I just cannot believe this.
You say that you can imagine that some people have positive experiences with Uma Inder, indeed I am one of those people who have greatly benefitted from participating in her programs, achieving a greater balance in my life is just one of them.
Please don’t label and dismiss me as a cult follower because I don’t accept everything you say here as true. I can however imagine from my own experience with different teachers, that someone might feel hurt when an existing trauma is touched by a life situation, especially possible when you are exploring and expanding your consciousness. This has happened to me in the past with other teachers and I have seen it happening to others. I think its almost unavoidable for most of us, as we carry so many wounds which are buried because they where too much to bear at the time. And it is an almost automatic reaction to not want to feel them again, so we project the original cause of the hurt onto the person or situation that has brought it up. I have done this myself; only it reinforced the original trauma and left me deeply troubled and negative, but did not lead me anywhere. So I gathered the courage to feel the pain and using my training in meditation to not get overwhelmed or lost into it. And guess what? This was not easy, but allowing the pain has been one of my greatest teachers.
I won’t go too far into my own story, my point is to share this with you and also tell you about the people I have witnessed getting stuck in immense negativity in similar occurrences, with only one way to turn their energy: to fabricate a story as a justification for themselves and putting all their frustration into blaming the other.
I don’t say this to be patronizing, on the contrary, because I know from my own experience that however loud you may shout the blame and how often you may repeat it, it won’t make the original pain go away.
Now, in this last post I hear a personal expression of someone, I can feel anger, disappointment and bitterness in your words and wonder what has caused you so much hurt, because I simply can’t match the things you say with my own experience of knowing Uma Inder for 3 years in which I have been in close contact with her and participated in some of her group programs.
You say you are afraid to be specific about your experiences because of death threats, which really puzzle me because it’s so far removed from the openness and absence of any kind of pressure that I experienced in my dealings with Uma Inder and people close to her, that I just cannot believe this.
You say that you can imagine that some people have positive experiences with Uma Inder, indeed I am one of those people who have greatly benefitted from participating in her programs, achieving a greater balance in my life is just one of them.
Please don’t label and dismiss me as a cult follower because I don’t accept everything you say here as true. I can however imagine from my own experience with different teachers, that someone might feel hurt when an existing trauma is touched by a life situation, especially possible when you are exploring and expanding your consciousness. This has happened to me in the past with other teachers and I have seen it happening to others. I think its almost unavoidable for most of us, as we carry so many wounds which are buried because they where too much to bear at the time. And it is an almost automatic reaction to not want to feel them again, so we project the original cause of the hurt onto the person or situation that has brought it up. I have done this myself; only it reinforced the original trauma and left me deeply troubled and negative, but did not lead me anywhere. So I gathered the courage to feel the pain and using my training in meditation to not get overwhelmed or lost into it. And guess what? This was not easy, but allowing the pain has been one of my greatest teachers.
I won’t go too far into my own story, my point is to share this with you and also tell you about the people I have witnessed getting stuck in immense negativity in similar occurrences, with only one way to turn their energy: to fabricate a story as a justification for themselves and putting all their frustration into blaming the other.
I don’t say this to be patronizing, on the contrary, because I know from my own experience that however loud you may shout the blame and how often you may repeat it, it won’t make the original pain go away.