I went through Landmark Forum and afterwards was not myself, which I suppose is the point of the training to "transform." I'm struggling to understand what happened. Did Landmark trigger a manic episode because I was always bipolar and the stress of landmark set it off OR did I just become brainwashed from Landmark and my erratic behavior was due to the "training?"
In terms of background information, I went through the course. While going through it, I experienced insights and revelations about my life and myself. I started to let go of past incidents and approach the future with a new and unhinged outlook. I also felt that some of the lessons impacted me like "life is short" "live now" and "you have nothing to fear" etc. So, leaving Landmark, I felt like I "got it" and approached life with new vigor.
In the course, I worked out some serious issues with my brother, my wife and my career. I experienced a lot of stress and didn't really sleep. So, I can't tell if what happened after is a result of the course or if it is a result of a pre-existing bipolar condition.
After the course, I didn't sleep. I was convinced that I was going to fix the homelessness problem in NYC and get rid of Alzheimer's. I decided to quit my job (of 10 years) and become a screenwriter. I quit my job in a crazy way, decided to move, and decided that everything would work itself out. I convinced myself I was enlightened and nothing mattered--money etc. I had all the hallmarks of mania but I felt like it was the landmark "training" that caused me to behave in such a way. However, I was acting much more erratic and manic than my wife who went through the program but I figured I must've "got it" and she didn't.
Anyway, I'm really confused about what happened and am wondering if I don't have bipolar disorder and the course just caused me to behave this way.
In terms of background information, I went through the course. While going through it, I experienced insights and revelations about my life and myself. I started to let go of past incidents and approach the future with a new and unhinged outlook. I also felt that some of the lessons impacted me like "life is short" "live now" and "you have nothing to fear" etc. So, leaving Landmark, I felt like I "got it" and approached life with new vigor.
In the course, I worked out some serious issues with my brother, my wife and my career. I experienced a lot of stress and didn't really sleep. So, I can't tell if what happened after is a result of the course or if it is a result of a pre-existing bipolar condition.
After the course, I didn't sleep. I was convinced that I was going to fix the homelessness problem in NYC and get rid of Alzheimer's. I decided to quit my job (of 10 years) and become a screenwriter. I quit my job in a crazy way, decided to move, and decided that everything would work itself out. I convinced myself I was enlightened and nothing mattered--money etc. I had all the hallmarks of mania but I felt like it was the landmark "training" that caused me to behave in such a way. However, I was acting much more erratic and manic than my wife who went through the program but I figured I must've "got it" and she didn't.
Anyway, I'm really confused about what happened and am wondering if I don't have bipolar disorder and the course just caused me to behave this way.