Hello All.
I am a student of Jagad Guru Siddhaswarupananda, however I am no longer an active student as I was facing challenges with my spiritual practice, constantly committing offenses against the Holy Names of Krishna, and so eventually I considered myself to have fallen out of the Sadhana Bhakti, I am no longer feeling any nectar when I try to chant on my beads, although I am still somehow attracted to the congregational chanting of the Holy Names, I have just lost connection and association to the good fellow students and disciples whom I consider them to be my mentors.
My experience overall was very fun in a transcendental way, life changing,(as I was addicted to drugs before). I have learned a lot from fellow devotees, and have met great persons who have advanced spiritually in their practice. I have heard a lot of negative rumors as well within the community but I have brushed it aside as I really want to pursue my endeavor in advancing spiritually.
Now I am very perplexed. If my guru is not bonafide, why is there some disciples who have really advanced in their spiritual life, and I have witnessed it in their way of life. What to speak of Tusta Krishna Prabhu? Yogeshwar Prabhu, and other great devotees within the association (only a few)
What if CB does really have a unique way of bringing up devotees? although most of it are negative. A lot of aspects to be criticised within the Vaishnava community.
I have a lot of negative feedback from Srila BV Narayan Maharaj Pranpbhu, that he deviates ACBS teachings?
What if every guru is really unique to one another and have their own style of method of teaching Krishna consciousness ?.
If I am wrong, I need someone who is an advanced Vaishnava who is unbiased who can enlighten me in this manner in understanding this situation, and guide me again in finding the right guru for me to start over with my Spiritual life.
Who are the current living acharyas I can look upon and listen to, to which I can decide where to go and take shelter to?
I am a student of Jagad Guru Siddhaswarupananda, however I am no longer an active student as I was facing challenges with my spiritual practice, constantly committing offenses against the Holy Names of Krishna, and so eventually I considered myself to have fallen out of the Sadhana Bhakti, I am no longer feeling any nectar when I try to chant on my beads, although I am still somehow attracted to the congregational chanting of the Holy Names, I have just lost connection and association to the good fellow students and disciples whom I consider them to be my mentors.
My experience overall was very fun in a transcendental way, life changing,(as I was addicted to drugs before). I have learned a lot from fellow devotees, and have met great persons who have advanced spiritually in their practice. I have heard a lot of negative rumors as well within the community but I have brushed it aside as I really want to pursue my endeavor in advancing spiritually.
Now I am very perplexed. If my guru is not bonafide, why is there some disciples who have really advanced in their spiritual life, and I have witnessed it in their way of life. What to speak of Tusta Krishna Prabhu? Yogeshwar Prabhu, and other great devotees within the association (only a few)
What if CB does really have a unique way of bringing up devotees? although most of it are negative. A lot of aspects to be criticised within the Vaishnava community.
I have a lot of negative feedback from Srila BV Narayan Maharaj Pranpbhu, that he deviates ACBS teachings?
What if every guru is really unique to one another and have their own style of method of teaching Krishna consciousness ?.
If I am wrong, I need someone who is an advanced Vaishnava who is unbiased who can enlighten me in this manner in understanding this situation, and guide me again in finding the right guru for me to start over with my Spiritual life.
Who are the current living acharyas I can look upon and listen to, to which I can decide where to go and take shelter to?