Joyfree - i really appreciate your post
I've always felt annoyed with the followers who say catch phrases like 'i'm here only for This', 'I don't have time', "I don't want to miss my chance", "i want to die before I die' etc.. Where would they have gotten these phrases except have spoon fed by M himself to stoke the fire of 'I'm not there yet - only you Guruji can make it happen' Those are M's cue to start the diatribe.
I share with you Joyfree, that gnawing doubt in the gut about 'something's not right here', or 'why can't I authentically feel this overflowing surrender'. Maybe because, scientifically, the abdominal brain is a lot smarter than the mind/brain!
I've always felt annoyed with the followers who say catch phrases like 'i'm here only for This', 'I don't have time', "I don't want to miss my chance", "i want to die before I die' etc.. Where would they have gotten these phrases except have spoon fed by M himself to stoke the fire of 'I'm not there yet - only you Guruji can make it happen' Those are M's cue to start the diatribe.
I share with you Joyfree, that gnawing doubt in the gut about 'something's not right here', or 'why can't I authentically feel this overflowing surrender'. Maybe because, scientifically, the abdominal brain is a lot smarter than the mind/brain!