Hi dear Friend,
I do understand you, and your frustration.
Yes, the reason I am putting more information on the web is to help you and everyone else who has been damaged by Peter Young.
I'm glad it's helping.
Namdroling:
The Buddhist hierarchy are proven to be totally unwilling to self-police.
This is partly cultural, and partly self-interest.
There are many proven cases where so-called teachers, even well established and connected ones, have been allowed to act in very bad ways for a very long time (Sogyal is just one recent example).
The fact that Namdroling is not responding is actually a sign that they do NOT recognise, and do NOT endorse Peter Young.
If they did recognise him, or wish to defend him, they would respond.
By saying nothing, they are saying you are correct.
This is a Tibetan way of doing things.
They have not yet grown culturally enough to understand that self-policing is required. It will come in time.
The attacks you feel:
1. Getting and wearing a dzi stone is the traditional Tibetan way of defending yourself from energy attacks.
They are said to be a very powerful defensive measure.
(You can find them on the web)
2. You may wish to find a real Tibetan Buddhist Geshe and talk to them about what's going on. They may be willing to do a Tsog offering for you.
You will have to be calm and respectful, like you are going to a doctor, or they will get scared.
3. At least part of what you are feeling is PTSD, it is not psychic attack.
Find a trauma recovery specialist, and follow their advice.
It will help much more than you can believe right now.
Trust me on this.
Do it as soon as possible.
4. As Corboy says, also get a medical check up.
The stress you've been through may have upset balances in your body.
Addressing these may also make you feel a lot better than you can believe right now.
5. My strong advice is to avoid all witchdoctors and all similar people when trying to fix this problem.
The bottom line is we can't trust any of them.
They will use your current state of weakness to extract money from you.
6. I recognise that PY has developed certain abilites.
However, most of it is "stage magic" (NOT real); part of it is hypnotism; and part of it is psychological / social programming.
He is MUCH WEAKER than he makes himself out to be.
The bottom line is: By believing he has this power, you give him this power.
This is proven.
7. Read as much as you can about recovery from being in a cult.
There's good information on this website, in books and on the web.
You will find that what you are experiencing is very common.
It is 99% due to the emotional, psychological and spiritual damage and pain he has put you through.
Once you understand this, you will see that it is not "energy attacks" in the way you describe here.
It is an attack on your energy, yes, but he has already attacked you.
The damage has been done.
You now need to recover.
Now you are away from the cult, he can no longer attack you.
It's like he broke your leg, but you are only just realising.
You are finding you have difficultly walking now, so it feels like he is attacking you now.
No - your leg was broken whilst you were in the group, but you didn't notice.
You are noticing now, because you are walking free.
Do you understand how that works?
It is very important to understand this.
8. Something I've recently become aware of is that "spiritual damage" is very real.
This is something that can be healed, but you need to begin to heal the emotional and psychological damage first.
I have been surprised to find that the Christian tradition understand this very well. Find yourself a well-recognised, down to Earth, Christian priest, and talk with them about the spiritual abuse you've been through.
DO NOT seek an exorcist or something like that.
You don't need someone like that.
You need someone very down to earth, practical, well established, well reocognised and well thought of by everyone in their community.
Someone who gains their power through simply caring about others.
9. Eat well, and do exercise.
10. The more time you spend thinking about PY in this way, the more power he continues to have over you.
Change your focus.
It is difficult and takes time, because PY is expert at programming his victims.
It is possible, and you will amazed at how much better you feel.
This is part of the path of you regaining power over yourself.
You gave that power to PY when you were in the cult.
TAKE YOUR POWER BACK.
11. Read Rick Ross' book.
12. Read other people's experiences on this website about what they go through when they get out of cults.
You will find that everyone has similar experiences to what you are going through now - and that is from all sorts of cults, from all sorts of cult leaders, most of whom do not claim the psychic powers that PY claims.
This proves what you are experiencing is not due to PY continuing to attack you.
13. Stop focussing on the person who broke your leg.
Take action to heal your broken leg!
It's that simple, but I know it's very difficult to feel the truth of that right now.
Trust me, and trust the experience of others who have recovered from cult abuse.
This is the way to do it.
14. All cult leaders do their best to convince their victims they are more powerful than they are.
The effect of this is what you are experiencing right now.
It is a total lie.
PY is weak. Remember that.
He does NOT have the power to attack you in this way.
This is the truth of it.
The more you believe he does have that power, the more you will feel bad.
He has programmed you to believe he has that power.
You need to de-progam yourself.
There are people who can, and will, help you do this.
As you go through the de-progamming process, which you have started, you will find that it feels like he is attacking you, or trying to stop you de-programming yourself.
This is a good sign that the de-programming is working.
Cult leaders know how to program people in such a way that we feel bad when we clean ourselves of their programming.
They make their progamming "sticky", so when we clean ourselves, it resists, and pulls at our skin.
This is entirely psychological and emotional, nothing else - but, when you are going through it, it doesn't feel just psychological and emotional.
This is because cult leaders work on the subconscious.
Have faith that many of us have succeeded in freeing ourselves from cults, and have faith that your are strong enough to do this.
I know you are strong enough, because you got out.
The one's who are still there are the ones who are too weak to help themselves.
15. A big part of healing / freeing yourself is to recognise why you were attracted to PY in the first place. You must be very honest.
This is very difficult to admit to oneself, but is essential.
When you let go of that motivation, you will find you have made a huge leap forward.
With PY, most people he attracts want power.
He uses that to trap them.
I am thinking of you. Stay strong.
Be gentle with yourself.
I do understand you, and your frustration.
Yes, the reason I am putting more information on the web is to help you and everyone else who has been damaged by Peter Young.
I'm glad it's helping.
Namdroling:
The Buddhist hierarchy are proven to be totally unwilling to self-police.
This is partly cultural, and partly self-interest.
There are many proven cases where so-called teachers, even well established and connected ones, have been allowed to act in very bad ways for a very long time (Sogyal is just one recent example).
The fact that Namdroling is not responding is actually a sign that they do NOT recognise, and do NOT endorse Peter Young.
If they did recognise him, or wish to defend him, they would respond.
By saying nothing, they are saying you are correct.
This is a Tibetan way of doing things.
They have not yet grown culturally enough to understand that self-policing is required. It will come in time.
The attacks you feel:
1. Getting and wearing a dzi stone is the traditional Tibetan way of defending yourself from energy attacks.
They are said to be a very powerful defensive measure.
(You can find them on the web)
2. You may wish to find a real Tibetan Buddhist Geshe and talk to them about what's going on. They may be willing to do a Tsog offering for you.
You will have to be calm and respectful, like you are going to a doctor, or they will get scared.
3. At least part of what you are feeling is PTSD, it is not psychic attack.
Find a trauma recovery specialist, and follow their advice.
It will help much more than you can believe right now.
Trust me on this.
Do it as soon as possible.
4. As Corboy says, also get a medical check up.
The stress you've been through may have upset balances in your body.
Addressing these may also make you feel a lot better than you can believe right now.
5. My strong advice is to avoid all witchdoctors and all similar people when trying to fix this problem.
The bottom line is we can't trust any of them.
They will use your current state of weakness to extract money from you.
6. I recognise that PY has developed certain abilites.
However, most of it is "stage magic" (NOT real); part of it is hypnotism; and part of it is psychological / social programming.
He is MUCH WEAKER than he makes himself out to be.
The bottom line is: By believing he has this power, you give him this power.
This is proven.
7. Read as much as you can about recovery from being in a cult.
There's good information on this website, in books and on the web.
You will find that what you are experiencing is very common.
It is 99% due to the emotional, psychological and spiritual damage and pain he has put you through.
Once you understand this, you will see that it is not "energy attacks" in the way you describe here.
It is an attack on your energy, yes, but he has already attacked you.
The damage has been done.
You now need to recover.
Now you are away from the cult, he can no longer attack you.
It's like he broke your leg, but you are only just realising.
You are finding you have difficultly walking now, so it feels like he is attacking you now.
No - your leg was broken whilst you were in the group, but you didn't notice.
You are noticing now, because you are walking free.
Do you understand how that works?
It is very important to understand this.
8. Something I've recently become aware of is that "spiritual damage" is very real.
This is something that can be healed, but you need to begin to heal the emotional and psychological damage first.
I have been surprised to find that the Christian tradition understand this very well. Find yourself a well-recognised, down to Earth, Christian priest, and talk with them about the spiritual abuse you've been through.
DO NOT seek an exorcist or something like that.
You don't need someone like that.
You need someone very down to earth, practical, well established, well reocognised and well thought of by everyone in their community.
Someone who gains their power through simply caring about others.
9. Eat well, and do exercise.
10. The more time you spend thinking about PY in this way, the more power he continues to have over you.
Change your focus.
It is difficult and takes time, because PY is expert at programming his victims.
It is possible, and you will amazed at how much better you feel.
This is part of the path of you regaining power over yourself.
You gave that power to PY when you were in the cult.
TAKE YOUR POWER BACK.
11. Read Rick Ross' book.
12. Read other people's experiences on this website about what they go through when they get out of cults.
You will find that everyone has similar experiences to what you are going through now - and that is from all sorts of cults, from all sorts of cult leaders, most of whom do not claim the psychic powers that PY claims.
This proves what you are experiencing is not due to PY continuing to attack you.
13. Stop focussing on the person who broke your leg.
Take action to heal your broken leg!
It's that simple, but I know it's very difficult to feel the truth of that right now.
Trust me, and trust the experience of others who have recovered from cult abuse.
This is the way to do it.
14. All cult leaders do their best to convince their victims they are more powerful than they are.
The effect of this is what you are experiencing right now.
It is a total lie.
PY is weak. Remember that.
He does NOT have the power to attack you in this way.
This is the truth of it.
The more you believe he does have that power, the more you will feel bad.
He has programmed you to believe he has that power.
You need to de-progam yourself.
There are people who can, and will, help you do this.
As you go through the de-progamming process, which you have started, you will find that it feels like he is attacking you, or trying to stop you de-programming yourself.
This is a good sign that the de-programming is working.
Cult leaders know how to program people in such a way that we feel bad when we clean ourselves of their programming.
They make their progamming "sticky", so when we clean ourselves, it resists, and pulls at our skin.
This is entirely psychological and emotional, nothing else - but, when you are going through it, it doesn't feel just psychological and emotional.
This is because cult leaders work on the subconscious.
Have faith that many of us have succeeded in freeing ourselves from cults, and have faith that your are strong enough to do this.
I know you are strong enough, because you got out.
The one's who are still there are the ones who are too weak to help themselves.
15. A big part of healing / freeing yourself is to recognise why you were attracted to PY in the first place. You must be very honest.
This is very difficult to admit to oneself, but is essential.
When you let go of that motivation, you will find you have made a huge leap forward.
With PY, most people he attracts want power.
He uses that to trap them.
I am thinking of you. Stay strong.
Be gentle with yourself.